Update.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted an update about what I have been up to. Besides parenting two boys whose interests currently include building pillow forts (love this), throwing pillows at each other (not as much), and laying on top of each other (again, don’t love this as much either)…..I have been up to a few things. Over the winter I felt ‘stuck’. Through the fall and into the winter I had an idea I was working on and was feeling so inspired. But as February and March rolled around I started to get hung up on small details, inspiration was lower and I lost sight of what I wanted. Initially I was bummed. And trying to almost ‘force’ my inspiration back was only making it worse as well. So I did what is for some reason not as instinctual as it should be - accept it. Accept that I wasn’t feeling inspired. Accept that I may not want to proceed with my idea. Accept that what I was feeling was how I should be feeling. Deep sigh. Which is exactly what I did at the time (and also what I just did now). After that, I let it all go. And it felt amazing. I started to feel what I actually wanted to do again. I could hear myself again. I wasn’t focused on an outcome…I was just focused on what I was feeling and what I wanted to do next. So I went back to basics. To one of the first and best bit of advice that i’ve heard about purpose and passions - follow your curiosity. And so I did. I took a life coaching course. I applied to supply teach. I wrote. I refined my idea. And along the way I have learned a lot more about this topic of purpose and passions that I love so much that I will share soon. But one thing that became clear as more possibilities and ideas came into the horizon is that it’s really not that one thing that i’m looking for. There is not one idea that will be it. There isn’t one purpose or one job that will be the thing. The thing that will set me free. The thing that i’m waiting for. It’s already here. It’s me.