Enjoy the mystery of life.

It’s hard when things don’t go as planned. It’s hard not to be able to control outcomes. When you get something in your head about the way something should go.The way different moments of the day go. I find myself often looking ahead to try and make sure things go ‘well’ or a certain way. I spend a lot of time thinking about how i’m feeling. How do I feel now? Do I feel good? Am I happy? And then comparing how I feel now to another day or another week. I am not feeling like I did last week! I feel a lot different. I wonder why? Will I always feel like this now?

A lot of time is spent on things I can’t control. I can control how I feel to some extent - and I do. I have learned so many things that have improved my days. I have very few days now that I don’t feel ‘good’. But I can’t control it all. I won’t know if a decision that I’m going to make will turn out the way I hoped. I am going to have days, weeks or months that are difficult or in stagnation. Not every day will go as planned. Most days won’t go as planned. I’m starting to become okay with this.

I read something the other day about life that I really liked. It went something like this. Instead of spending time wishing for something to go a certain way, think of life like a mystery that’s unravelling before your eyes. Enjoy the mystery of it. The surprise of it. Be in excitement of what is to come. Treat it like a story with a surprise ending. Sit back, relax, and see where it takes you. After all, what other choice do you have? Enjoy the mystery of life.